Happy B day little sis
GRATTIS PÅ FÖDELSEDAGEN SARA SÖT! Känns varken som sommar eller som din födelsedag, men jag hoppas det blir den bästa någonsin, du förtjänar det och så mycket mer.
Saknar dig mer än något annat och älskar dig ännu mer.
And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you
I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know, I know
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what
Maybe we chose to walk in different directions, maybe we are in different continents, maybe we are living totally different lives, and maybe our dreams are way far from each others. But not anything of that matter, you will always be the most important thing in my life; you will always be my little sister.
There is nothing in the world I wouldn’t do for you.
There is no better friend than a sister. And there is no better sister than you.
Update
Igår slocknade jag på sängen efter att jag kom hem från jobbet, har ingen dö tid alls längre, gör något precis hela tiden, om det inte är jobb är det något annat man absolut måste göra på sin fria tid. Insåg att jag i princip inte vilat sen jag kom till Sydney så den där tidiga kvällen var välbehövlig.
Kommer iaf göra båda internshipen, på ID events Australia och nattklubben, ska ner dit på torsdag nu på kvällen jag ska arbeta med. Sen så har jag mitt första pass i baren på lördag, kan snart byta ut mitt extra jobb från servitris till bartender, vilket känns helt underbart då jag börjar bli lite smått trött på mitt jobb nu när den andra veckan är i full gång. Jobbar veckan ut sen är det över.
Imorgon har jag en intervju för event coordinator position, är endast en gång i veckan och obetalt men jag vill så gärna ha det att jag hoppas det kan funka att göra alla tre... vi får se.
Sen så hade jag och Emelie en girl day, vi shoppade alldeles för mycket i Darling Harbour, gick och åt på resturang, gjorde manikyr och tittade på sex and the city 2 på bio.
Däremot slutade hela bio upplevelsen en aning annorlunda...
Varken jag eller Emelie uppfattade riktigt vad biljett försäljaren sagt och innan vi visste ordet av det tittade vi ner på några biljetter det stod gold på. Efter en aning confusion och inte mycket mer funderingar på detta. Hittade vi oss själva stående på VIP loungen innan bion och det var nog då det började gå upp för oss att vi fått VIP bio. Det var hur stora fåtöljer som helst med justerbart ryggstöd och fotstöd, mellan oss fanns ett bord där man kunde ställa maten som kunde beställas direkt till biofotöljen. Vi kände att vi hamnat i våran egen framtid och jag tror vanlig bio tappat den där känslan av det lilla extra...
Meetings
So I am going to do my internship in a nightclub in Darling Harbour, I went to another meeting today with a big event company in Sydney, I don’t know why I went since I already had my Internship all set, but It’s a good company and I guess I just wanted to meet them for the future. Anyway it didn’t really go according to plans. I turned them down and was going to tell her that I am interested to keep in contact further on when she is offering me a full paid internship if I chose them. Should I cry or laugh ? So there I was standing with two great internships and a confused head.
After further thoughts, since the paid internship is only for 3 weeks I will try to convince the nightclub that I am able to do both, and get less work with them for the first 3 weeks. I really need my convincing eyes on if this one will work. Because it just has to work out!
And then as the top of everything I have a third position with a company that works with event and fundraising for kids in Africa, a position as event coordinator that I want to do so bad! I will meet up with them on Tuesday.
I want to do them all! This means I need to convince every single place to work around my schedule. Wish me luck I will need it. But then again I always liked a challenge.
Now it’s time for Friday fun and that means bowling with my favourite couple!
Work tomorrow morning at 6.30 am…
Have a great weekend and don’t do anything I wouldn’t do!
Internship
I don't really know what happened, but I guess I really, really wanted an internship...
I'm not going to explain it in detail, but today before work I realised I had a big problem, suddenly I had too many internships! Somehow I succeeded to get 5 different positions in 5 different companies. And I still have my two café jobs so I have no idea what to do right now.
Anyway I'm going to help out to arrange Thursday nights in a nightclub in Darling Harbour, they also offered to learn me up to work in the bar. Which will be awesome :)
I don't know what to do with the other offers yet, but I will meet up with one company tomorrow and another one on Monday, I guess I will figure it out somehow.
anyway... I'M STAYING IN SYDNEY!
Oh and Gab pics are coming really soon, just need to get my camera back, going over there tomorrow.
miss you, miss me ! 
Change of plans
What happened…
I don’t know who that person was, the one that wrote the last piece on my blog. I’m pretty sure it was my fingers but I don’t really think I was all me. Since when did I ever believe in giving up or impossible ? Since when did that became a part of me, it never will be.
I tried to book that flight ticket tonight, I couldn’t… I went for a run instead and had one of my wonderful moments.
This was not suppose to be happening, so why make it reality ? I don’t want to go back, I don’t want to step in to the Swedish summer no matter how nice the weather is. I was suppose to be a freezing person blaming the world that someone decided to place me in one of the most freezing countries in the world, when I was never made for that kind of weather. I was supposed to celebrate Christmas with my little sister and new years with freezing champagne in our hands. That was the plan after all. I was suppose to be dreaming myself far, far away to my next taste of freedom in the cold January weather, waiting for a bus that will never show up unable to feel my own toes. I was not suppose to go back to Sweden this summer, So why would I just accept and move on, why settle with less…
I have 24 hours before the weekend is here and my deadline has past. I have 24 hours to find a placement and tell the school I won’t be buying any flight tickets in the world right now.
I do want to get my diploma in Sydney, I do want to finish it all here, and have an Australian company on my resume. I do want to spend the last amazing months with Emelie in the middle of the city. And I will do it.
No matter what they tell you, no matter what they do, no matter what they teach us, What you believe is true.
What I want to do is putting together events in a nightclub or working with fundraising. I can’t sit here anymore and just accept everything I never wanted. I will get out here and make things happen. I have a plan, and in the end nothing is impossible, it’s all in your own hands, it’s all up to you.
Do what you have to do,
Make things happen!
sweden
I can’t really see it, I can’t even imagine standing on the airport in Sweden and step on the ground I chose to leave. I wasn’t supposed to go back yet, this was not supposed to be happening. And still here I am starring at the impossible, looking back at something that will be my own reality in just a few days.
I was suppose to finish my internship in Sydney, I was suppose to get my Diploma before I stepped on to Swedish ground again, I was suppose to come back when the snow was hiding the grass and the Swedish summer was far away, it wasn’t suppose to happen like this.
But I know it will, because believe it or not, there is nothing I can do about it. There are no internships in Sydney and the school made that very clear when they asked if I booked the ticket yet. I haven’t, but I know I have to.
I haven’t quit my job at the café yet, after all I just got it. Because I don’t really think my mind can adjust and take in this information and make it reality in my life, I think the whole me is unable to realize what is about to happen.
Sweden is so far away, so far away…
After all there is an ocean between us, and not just the miles, it’s so far away from my own world in all sorts of ways. It’s just not there anymore. And I can’t see myself standing in Stockholm next week. I just can’t. And still…
I know I will.
Deadline
Idag har jag jobbat hela dagen på ett café några meter från mitt hostel, Sen åkte vi med Fabian och tittade på när han tränade handboll. Och imorgon ska jag och Emelie ut och powerwalka vid nio innan jag börjar jobba. Hur jag ska orka upp den tiden är en gåta utan svar, får se hur det går…
Fick även min deadline idag, Jag måste ha ett internship innan fredag klockan 4 pm annars blir jag tvingad att åka tillbaka till Sverige och göra mitt internship. Och enligt den där skolan är det bara att ge upp. Bara tanken på att jag kan sitta i Sthlm om en vecka är för overklig för att ens ta in och Emelie har satt sitt hopp till ett mirakel som ska infinna sig. I’m still waiting…
Empty room
Sitting here alone with my memories Staring at a picture of you and me They say I look fine but if walls could talk They'd tell you all about how much I break apart I think we were right but we did it wrong Ever since you left me I just can't go on No, I can't even read the news today 'Cause everything reminds me of yesterday Empty room Empty heart Since you've been gone I must move on Empty room I never realised it could make me cry To hear the children laugh and play outside A walk in the park shouldn't be that bad But everything without you seems to make me sad I thought we were good, we were meant to be The way it turned out is still a mystery No, I can't even read the news today Reminds me of yesterday Empty room Empty heart Since you've been gone I must move on Empty space Lonely days My life goes on Just like the moon And to sail across the sky alone Forever trying to find its home I can't believe I have to say I don't know where you are today Empty room Empty heart Since you've been gone I must move on Empty space Lonely days My life goes on Just like the moon Empty room Empty room
Freezing
It's freezing in Sydney and I'm pretty sure Sweden is warm and nice!
I'm Sitting in the Library and trying to apply for every single internship I can find, it's not that much...
Worked with the City2Surf competition today, chose the winners for a small competition you can join when you register for the city2surf run. After that I met up with Emelie and had lunch. God I am so going out for brunch this weekend, and also I might have to open a brunch café in Sweden, otherwise I just can't go back!
Tomorrow I'm moving to another hostel for sure, this one in china town has just been terrible and so are the people there just listen to this...
The most strangest people I ever met in my life have appeared in my hostel this week. And 3 days ago a girl checked in, a normal girl that was actually fun to talk to. We have been talking with each other for 3 days now and what happened this morning...
This same girl looks at me and asks me who I am, Me a little bit confused, starting to think if she is joking, when I see in her friendly smiling face that she is dead serious. So what to do ? I'm shaking her hand again, introduce myself and again the same questions we already talked about is popping up. And I mean there is no way in hell she might have forgotten about me after all those conversations we had. What’s wrong with that place!
As I said I'm moving tomorrow!!
Oh and we watched Shrek in 3D last night as well, it was really good!! And believe it or not tomorrow we are going to the Sydney winter festival to ice skate! :) Wish me luck, I will need it...
Emelie my little sweet rice kokare :)
